Well, as more people continue to “find” this site, more questions are being asked as to why I am not actively participating on The Cocoa Lounge?
I’m sure some of you who read this are aware of my post on Cocoa about my stepping away from the net to care for one of my children who is ill.Well that hasn’t changed.I still have a sick child that requires my attention, and my time online is still limited compared to what it used to be.
Having said that, some wonder why I am here when I come online as oppose to the forum and I guess that is a good question and I think I have a good answer for that question.
When I discovered my child was ill, I fell into a small funk.I dug a hole and seriously considered crawling into it and covering myself with the dirt.However, with a small child needing my help, that was just not an option.So naturally I turned my attention to my Baby and put the board, as well as a host of other ventures I was involved in on hold until….whenever.Whenever being once my Spirit felt like facing the world again.
That time lasted for only a few short weeks as I honestly could not just stay offline.I had obligations I had to fulfill for others and I also spent a great deal of time searching for information on what ailed my child.
There came a time where I stopped by this place and just started blabbing to absolutely no one.Sure, I could have went to Cocoa, but Cocoa was not in tune with my Spirit.Even though it is my forum and my dream, it is not exactly the most comforting place in the world to hang out.Not just that though… I also just didn’t want to face anyone.I would come online at night and just chill here.It was calm and quiet and just what I needed.
Cocoa is not the only place I no longer visit.Many sites I used to visit are off my list today.Many things I used to concern myself with today I cannot because it brings me down and I do not want or need that.
So today, when I do come online ,it is to talk to a few choice people who contact me, work on learning CSS or conversate with parents dealing with what I am dealing with.
This does not mean Cocoa has been abandoned or I won’t return to it someday.It simply means that as of right now, TODAY, Cocoa is not in tune with my Spirit and thus I cannot be there and do not want those who are there to come here.
This blog is a quiet and peaceful place for me and not really meant to be a place for people to come and congregate.Now, I have no problem with people who find this place and leave comments, as a matter of fact, I welcome it.But I do not want this blog to turn into a mini Cocoa and would appreciate it if those of you of know about it, keep it to yourselves.
Many Blessings toward you and your child.
Kaety 2Birds
(a.k.a.
pro-black sista)
Peace 2 U!
Thank you for your kind words Kaety… they really do mean a lot to me
Shawna, is there anything I can do for you right now? I’d like to at least add you to my prayers if that wouldn’t be considered offensive to you. No matter what, I really want you to know that I’m here if you just want someone to talk to. Sometimes it’s easier to talk to a stranger, I think.
In my cancer support group, I’ve seen babies and children with brain tumors, stomach tumors, leukemia, etc. And to be honest with you, the children often do better with their illnesses than adults. Children are quite resilient and they usually continue to have hope and faith even when ours may waver. I’m not presuming to know your situation or its gravity; I just wanted to tell you that no matter what is going on with your precious one, there is ALWAYS reason to have hope. If harder times come, please just know that you have the strength to get through it. Anyone that can carry a baby for almost forty weeks in her womb must have at least a bit of the divine in them. I hope you remember that. And I hope you don’t mind my comments here. It’s just my attempt to encourage you.
with peace
Sister, your thoughts and prayers are most appreciated.
Peace Sista